Okay, cheesy title right?

Anyways, I'm happy and frustrated at the same time right now. First of all, I'm happy because I'm becoming a bit more responsible, and I'm frustrated because schools almost out and my parents are both working from 8 to 5 all summer. I'll be sitting at home, babysitting my little brother aaaalllll daaaaay!!!

Also, I have a D in AVID, and my parents said that if I didn't get any zeros (or if I get good grades on my progress report) I wouldn't be grounded anymore. I did good the first part of the last quarter, all B's, then, I found out I got a D in AVID. I guess it was cuz I forgot to turn in my major project, and I turned it in two days before school was out.

Today's the last day of school, I'm partially happy because I don't have to deal with my bisexual friend Robert all summer, or any of his fifty million other bisexual friends, and I'm sad cuz, well, the 8 to 5 thing, and alot of my friends won't be going to Albritton again next year (for example, KATRYNA). They're all abandoning me! I feel so alone! But Robert's gonna be there *sarcasm* lucky me *sarcasm ends*.

Oh yeah, and my neck has been sucking the life outta me lately! Every time I turn my head or tilt it back, my neck feels like I've been lifting weights with it or something, IT'S SOOO SORE!

And I have a crush on this guy at my church named Sam. Sam Sgro. His phone number is (***)***-**** (I actually do know his number, but I'm not givin it out on the internet!). He has 11 brothers and sisters (cheaper by the dozen!), he's going on a mission trip to Romania this summer, he's short, has dirty blonde hair and blue eyes, and he's HOT! The worst thing is, he doesn't even know I exist. I'VE EVEN PRANK CALLED HIM! My friend Devean (pronounced, like Devin, only she's a girl), and my other friend Michelle (both of them are in 6th grade), called him, and Michelle said, "Hey sexy". It was halarious (did I spell that right?)! He was at the morning service at church last sunday, but he wasn't at youth group, that goes from 6:30 to 9:00.

Katryna went with me to youth that night, and naturally, he wasn't there. They had this sermon in the youth center, and then we went to the adult's auditorium (where the normally hold morning service) and a whole buncha peoples were in there singing and praying the entire time. Katryna, Devean and I all sat down (right behind Sam's sister), and goofed off the entire time. It was thunderstorming on our way home, and then we dropped off Katryna, and then Devean.

I'll save my evil substitute teacher that I now have for homeroom for another day.

IT'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! WOOOOO!!!

I don't know why, but I really hate school lately. I guess it's because my parents always pressure me into not getting any zeros, and it really, really, REALLY stresses me out. I guess that's why I'm doing so bad in school. OR, it could be because they've loaded us up to our eyeballs in stupid, pointless, ugly, dumb projects! I mean, I didn't even finish my last language arts project, and that really super sucks because now I prolly have like a D in language arts, and that's my best subject!

Yea, and I still haven't found a mystery book for my language arts project, and it's due tuesday. Lucky me.

And I'm trying to think of a good story for my other language arts project (yurp, there are many others), and I've come up with three already, but all of them all bullcrap. I really hate that I am such a procrastinator. And, Katryna, just be happy you are waaaay more 'sponsible than I am, because it will help you later in life. ME, on the other hand, I have absolutely no scense of responsibility at all, and I am so lazy it isn't even funny. I think Taekwondo is supposed to help me in that matter, but I'm still so bad at it. Grand Master keeps telling me that I'm sooo good and that I could go to the olimpics one day, but I think she's just saying that so that I won't quit and then she'll lose all that money she makes on ripping us all off!!!

Speaking of the Olympics, my dad is actually submitting his papers and there's a very high chance that he'll be accepted into the World Class Athlete Program, and if he does, which he will, we're gonna move to Colorado Springs, and my little brother and I will have to take Taekwondo at the World Class Athlete Center, which will really suck, because then I'll be stuck with it for the rest of my life, and I HATE Taekwondo!!! Plus, it's expensive! I mean, Taekwondo here costs, like 180 dollars a month, and testing, which happens every couple of months, costs 50 dollars! When we become black belts, getting a degree on our belt will cost 150 dollars! I think that's so ridiculous, and we're already poor! I don't get any allowance (so don't you be complainin 'tryna!!!), and I haven't got any new manga for like, five months because my mom think's it's satanic so she won't let me buy it anymore. I'm still gonna buy the second volume of Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode, though, snicker snicker.

I've still got my anime, Galaxy Angel, to stick by my side, so I'll be able to watch it when I'm craving more anime! I like to watch it in Japanese so that I can learn the language quicker. Hey, I need to start studying it again, because that way I can cuss people out at school in japanese! Oh yea! That would be soooo awesome!

And, I really need some help with Photoshop, I'm so bad compared to and ! I mean, I can't even do the hair and eyes right. Heck, and can't even do the lineart right!!!

I guess that's all I really have to say today. Except, HI ANGELIA AND KATRYNA. I'm such a dork, they're my only two real friends on Deviantart, and I know Katryna in person, and Angelia's her sis. GAWD, I NEED TO GET SOME FRIENDS!!!

Clearly exibited by the title, I am not feeling to happy today.

Yea, first of all, I have three projects that were due, like, fifty billion friggin years ago, and I still havent turned 'em in, and now I'm stuck on this stoooooopid computer trying to finish them before I fail all of my friggin classes and then I'm never aloud to draw, or get on the compooter ever, ever, ever, ever, ever..... ever, ever again!!!!!!

Yea, and now I'm sneaking on the computer, and mom my and dad are both gone. I think my mom's at Old Navy buying some gay discount jeans. Yea, they've got a sale, and she decides that she wants to save some money, so she drives over there and leaves my brother and I home alone.

Anyways, I've got a stoopid papercut on my finger and it hearts because I type so fast!!!

And, I've had lunch detention two days in a row because of my stupid AVID class, and I haven't turned in two of my assignments for my project. I finished them yesterday, but I had to come back to detention because Mrs. Thompson (my avid teacher) decides that my binder is messy, so I need to come and clean it out. I guess it was good for me, because I wasn't walking around with a pile of papers in my hands all day anymore.

Yup, that's pretty much all I have to say today. *pant pant pant*

Yea, this is my first journal in a while, so here we go *deep breath*.

Whell, the first thing that's on my mind right now is my friend Katie from school. She's been my buddy for a long time now, but now I feel like she's trying to sabatoge my boyfriend and I's relationship, I think she likes him *snicker*! I think that because she lied about alotta stuff he said about me, for instance, she said he called me his bike with shocks, but instead, someone else told me he said, "What is the point of having a girlfriend when I can't take her anywhere, what am I supposed to take her in, my bike with shocks?". Sounds alot nicer, dontcha think? She also said he said he's going to dump me, which I don't think is true, because she said that a long time ago and he still hasn't dumped me. I think this is what's going to happen if I dump him before he moves: Katie's going to start going out with him. That happens to me all the time, I decide to go out with someone that no one would dare to ask out just because it would ruin their so called social life. Then, I get constant comments like, "Omigosh, you're going out with so-and-so?", and it really ticks me off. Then, I start to not like him anymore, so I dump him, and then some other chick decides to go out with him because it won't ruin her social life anymore if she does because I've dulled down the shock or something like that. Isn't that bull? I mean, I dont think that it's fair for the guy she's asking out. If she really likes him, then she wont care if it ruins her social life to go out with him. At first I thought I was going to be a social outcast when I asked John out, but now I think it's okay. Yea, I get a couple comments from people that call me Jocelyn Bristow the fourth (which doesn't make any scense), but I'm pretty much okay with that now. I really like John, so I guess it's all right if I'm willing to risk a couple of embarassments for him. I just don't want him to move. Yea, he's moving to a different state in december, which sucks so bad it's not even funny! I mean, come on, I finally gather up the courage to ask this dude out that I've liked for a whole friggin year, and then his parents decide he's going to move away and go to private school. Does that suck or what? And another thing, his parents don't even know I exist, because he's not aloud to go out with anyone, but he's in the friggin eighth grade! Isn't that stuuuuupid??? So, he can't call me or see me anywhere outside of school, and I don't have any classes with him except for homeroom, and that's only for 45 minutes! But, he said that when he moves he can call me, because he's moving away from his parents. At least that brightens up the situation a bit.

**huff puff**

Okay, I think I'm done rambling about that today!!!

-Ichigo

Today I am very frustrated because my friend, Kasey, has a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge crush on this guy named Malaki, and it's getting on my last nerve. All she ever talks about is Malaki this, and Malaki that, it's so freaking frustrating! I mean, I love her to deeath, but she's about to bring me to my deeath !!!!

On another note, I'm also pretty relieved lately because all my mom ever talks about is how we're going to move to Colorado at the end of the school year when my dad gets back from Yuma, Arizona for training Golden Knights students. Every year he leaves for Yuma for two months because he's like one of the Golden Knights Army Parachute Team's coordinators (or something like that). The reason we moved here from Colorado Springs in the first place was because my dad wanted to get out of the Special Forces so he wouldnt have to go to Iraq for every waking moment of the rest of his life. So anyways, I've now lived in North Carolina for about ten years (sigh). I haaaaate it here! It's so freaking humid I feel like I'm breathing a river! I live around Fayettville on Fort Bragg, and Fayettville is like the ghetto to me! I mean, I come from around Germany and Arizona, so I really what it's like here, it's a big shocker for me to move from a place that's so dry and clear and sunny all the time to a place that's humid and rainy and gloomy all the time! I was born and Germany and we often go to Arizona to visit our family, most of them live in Lake Side or Phoenix. It's amazingly beautiful in Colorado, so beautiful that I'm never ever ever depressed, unlike here! I'm always crying and whining and thinking about all the bad things in life here (although it has been surprisingly dry and pretty out lately here). My dad is gone right now, because he's super into cycling (as in, for a career), and he's in Georgia at this 'time trial race track'. He made a time that would get him into the top 16 in the nationals, which is pretty awesome. Most of my friends are scared of my dad, but he's really cool most of the time. I get my humorous side from him, and my mature side from my mom (who can be so boring at times). You know what they say, opposites attract!

I'm always so frustrated about my love life, because I always fall for the dorky guys. For instance, I just dumped a guy named Jesse Cromeenes over the summer. He's one of the class clown, Christian freak guys who gets horrible grades because he's so irrisponsible. He once got ISS because of me (hahaha, sucker!). Anyways, I'm now liking another dorky guy (no Katryna, I am not telling you who he is!!! **coughjuancough**). Anyways, my mom was in the same boat about twenty years ago when she went out with this guy named Alex who was also a class clown and who also would've won the Dorky Kid of the Year award. I NERDOS!!! The weirdest part about me liking him is he actually asked my out last year (oh shiit, Katryna probably figured out who it is by now...). I've liked him every since, but I never really thought about it before. He d me for a while last year for picking Jesse over him, and I got offended and everything.

Hahaha, am I boring you yet ???

As I stated before in one of my previous journals, I have at least fifty billion either (a) nerdy (b) annoying (c) abusive (d) obsessive (e) just insane or (f) all of the above friends. A couple of examples being Kasey, Christina, and John Bristow.

One last thing I'm happy about is I've got prismacolors!!! Ha! I rule!!! Anyways, I'm getting alot of compliments on my drawings at school because of them! (Yea, and no one on deviantart has seen any of my good drawings yet! I'm working on one now.)

Sigh, okay, I think I'm done [for now, mwahahahahaha... meep meep]